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hey sorry i haven't updated in aloooong time. I've been very busy. I recently got a myspace. My page is graciesworld so check it out and add my as your friend if you have a myspace. Lately, I've been feeling pretty down and I'm not too sure why. Please try to cheer me up.
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[07 Nov 2005|09:07pm] |
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Wow, band is over now. What am I going to do with my life? I have so much free time now :-) so if anyone wants to do anything call me.
States was Saturday. We had our best show of the season. Although we got 9th place we did AWESOME! So DON'T COMPLAIN!
Anywho, Algebra class is going a lot better than I expected. I actually understand what is going. :-D hehe.
Brian, Joe, and Justin...if you guys don't start doing your work I'm going to hurt you all! That is your first and only warning! :-p
Monee I LOVE you!
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[24 Oct 2005|06:08pm] |
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Confessions of a broken heart |
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I wait for the postman
To bring me a letter
And I wait for the good Lord
To make me feel better
And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
In crisis that only grows older
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?
Why'd you have to go?
Boy to girl
Boy to girl
I am broken, but I am hoping
Boy to girl
Boy to gril
I am crying, a part of me's dying
and these are
These are the confessions
Of a broken heart...
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| Crazy |
[24 Oct 2005|05:17pm] |
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Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna safe me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on.
If you open your eyes,
you'll see that something is wrong.
Lately things have been kind of blank. I haven't had much in my heart to really think about. I've just been trying to avoid certain people and topics because they usually just make everything worse.
You're out!
Moving on...today in composition class was a classical moment. There is this kid in my class...Zach...who is a complete idiot! He really thinks Bill and I are getting married on Friday. Haha! So I am going to play him and see how far this goes until he realizes it's a lie lol. He thinks I am getting married to a tenth grader and starting a family. It's great! After we came back from lunch he started to tell me how much it is going to hurt to have a child. Omg, it is so funny! He is so gullable. After class I told Mrs. Prescott about the little adventurous disscusion we had at our table and she laughed her head off. She said that I shouldn't do that to him because I probably made him horny and he won't be able to focus the rest of the day because he'd be thinking about me having babies. I couldn't believe my teacher said that! I was sooooo disturbed. LOL!
Bill I can't wait to get "married" Friday and start a family. haha!
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| Life... |
[23 Oct 2005|01:46pm] |
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In the future I can't wait to see
if you open up the gates for me..
Till the day we meet again
in my heart I'll keep you my friend...
Every step I take every move I make
I'll be missing you...
Thinking of the day when you went away...
I'll love you always and forever, but I can't wait for you any longer.
Yesterday was fun. I took the ACTs, rushed to band and performed twice, then sat in the stands for three hours and froze my but off. Bill, Bree, Emily, Emily, and myself had a hand warming party. It was very nice, we all put our hands on top of each other and kept each other warm.
Oh Bill and I decided that we are getting married this coming Friday because we don't have a football game so you are all invited! :-)
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[19 Oct 2005|02:48pm] |
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There is nothing left in my heart
No feelings, love, courtesy, jealously, etc...just emptiness. A blackhole of empty space.
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| Good News? |
[18 Oct 2005|01:11pm] |
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So I just heard that his family isn't letting him go to Texas? I know I should feel sorry for him...but I'M NOT! I'm sorry but I am totally HAPPY that he isn't going to Texas. If he went then he'd probably never come back and I'd never see him again:-(
You know what sucks...
YOU CAN'T HELP WHO YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH!
I do love him but I have to deny all the feeling I get towards him because it will NEVER work out.
So all I can say is...GOODBYE TO YOU!
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| Do you ever feel ignored? |
[17 Oct 2005|03:55pm] |
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I've been feeling pretty ignored lately. Some may hear that and automatically think...oh, she's just jealous. Well, no that's not it at all! I have been ignored. I have been trying to get a hold of Kyle for like over a month now! I call him constantly and leave tons of messages. I'll admit sometimes they aren't the nicest but you'd think he'd call me back! NOOO... This feeling sucks and I don't know how to get rid of it. I always tell myself...oh, just stop thinking about him, blah, blah, blah...yeah right like that actually happens! I feel so awful, it makes me wonder what I am doing wrong or what is wrong with me. Why does this happen to me? Then I think...oh well, I'm just not good enough for anyone. I realized today that I can't think like that! If I am always putting to much thought into men then I'll waste my life. So from now on my philosophy is...
Here's to the men we love,
Here's to the men who love us...
Since the men that we love,
aren't the men that love us...
screw the men...
here's to US!
I'm through with all this bullcrap! I can't sit around and wait for something that is NEVEr going to happen. I've wasted too much of my life on this person and I cant' wait any longer. :-( I know it is going to take a lot of time to stop thinking about him but I know I can do it. As long as I keep focused do thinkgs to keep my mind off of everything that reminds me of him.
I started to write a poem the other day, it isn't finished nor touched up at all but here is a rough start...
I look at you
and study your pace
Who I thought you were
disappears from your face
You lied to me
and played me well
Free from you
I wish to dwell...
Well, enough of that sappy stuff. Saturday I have a busy looong day. I am taking the ACTS from 8 am to 1 pm. That's not so bad but...what makes it worse is that I have two band competitions that day. And the first competition is at 2 pm! An hour away from where I will be at 1 pm! Hilton is all pissed at the seniors who are testing but you know what...this is my future, if I have to miss a stupid competition then that's just how it goes. I feel bad because Hilton is putting guilt trips on us all but...no way will I let him ruin my future for one competiton!
I have a paper to write...
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| Miserable Deals |
[26 Sep 2005|06:23pm] |
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I just got the worst news of my life Saturday night. I found out that the guy I've liked for almost 5 years now is moving away to Texas. :-( How horrible and unfair is that?!? I haven't been myself since I found out. If you think about it, I am kind of patheic! But I don't care! I've never felt this way about anyone before in my life. Heh, and knowing that he is leaving just sucks! It doesn't seem fair at all! Every thing I see/listen to reminds me of him. Enough self pity though...
Last Thursday we had the terrorist drill at school. It was so crazy! My room was the only room to get taken hostage! If it were real I would have crapped my pants...no joke!
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[29 Aug 2005|05:19pm] |
What's Your Name?
Children laugh 146 times a day, adults laugh only 4 times a day..... DON'T REPLY REPOST
What's your new name???
Follow the instructions to find your new name.
1. Use the third letter of your first name to determine your new first name:
a = crusty
b = lumpy
c = buttercup
d = gidget
e = squeezit
f = greasy
g = fluffy
h = cheeseball
i = chim-chim
j = stinky
k = flunky
l = boobie
m = pinky
n = zippy
o = goober
p = doofus
q = slimy
r = loopy
s = snotty
t = tulefel
u = dorkey
v = poopsie
w = oprah
x = skipper
y = dinky
z = zsa-zsa
2. Use the second letter of your last name to determine the first half of your new last name:
a = apple
b = toilet
c = giggle
d = burger
e = cootie
f = barf
g = lizard
h = waffle
i = cootie
j = monkey
k = potty
l = liver
m = banana
n = rhino
o = bubble
p = hamster
q = toad
r = gizzard
s = pizza
t = gerbil
u = chicken
v = pickle
w = chuckle
x = tofu
y = gorilla
z = stinker
3. Use the fourth letter of your last name to determine the second half of your new last name:
a = head
b = mouth
c = face
d = nose
e = tush
f = breath
g = pants
h = shorts
i = lips
j = honker
k = booger
l = brain
m = tushie
n = butt
o = hiney
p = biscuits
q = toes
r = buns
s = fanny
t = sniffer
u = sprinkles
v = kisser
w = squirt
x = humperdinck
y = brains
z = juice
now add ur new name to the bottom of this list!
1. Cory ~ Loopy Apple Tush
2. Tara ~ Loopy Bubble Buns
3. Vickie~Buttercup Apple Toes
4. Vanessa==>ZIPPY APPLE TOES!<==
5. Christy.... Loopy Cootie Kisser...I don't like the cootie part...hehe
6. tonyginzo....zippy cootiejuice...nice
7. Javier G.. poopie bubblebutt
8. CrazyNickie.. Buttercup Applenose
9. Jasser ... Snotty Apple Sniffer
10. Ricky ..... Buttercup Bubble Juice
11. eLLa- boobie bubble lips LOL
12. natalie - tulefel apple lips
13. nathalie- tulefel bubblehiney....yup..sounds like me!
14. Maria~ Loopy Gizzard Tush
15. ornella...zippy cootie shorts
16. Chris.....Loopy Pizza Buns
17. Papo - Lumpy Apple Shorts
18. Papo!!! you stole my fav number!!!!anyway Caro-Loopy Gizzard Juice
19. Elio - Chim-chim cootie buns
20. Bianca- Crusty Apple-Face... nice...
21.Vanessa Hidalgo- sqeezeit apple head
22.JuSt JoRgE - Loopy Cootie-Butt <----that's AWESOME!
23. SASHA - SNOTTY COOTIE-HEAD !!! sexy huh ?!? lol
24. *GrEtHeL*~ Squeezit Apple-Face.... lmao .. that sounds so atractive!!!
25.LeLi~~Snotty Chicken Mouth..Thats Funny
26. Ivonne- Goober Apple Sniffer
27. Jonathan-Zippy Apple Head
28. Karla~ Loopy Liver Buns!! LOL..
29. Laz-Zsa-Zsa Apple head
30. fred-squeezeit gizzard nose
31. Denis-Zippy Cootie Tush, cute! I likye!!
32.James- Pinky Cootie Butt, I like the Pinky part. lol
32.Lori- Loopy Pizza Butt....LOL I like it!! =)
33. Brittany- Chim-Chim Giggle Hiney..... Haha cute
34. Lola- Boobie Apple Nose
35.Lacey- Boobie Apple tushie
36. Scott- Goober AppleFanny
37. MaKayla-flunky apple tushie
38.ILL WILL-boobie bubble nose
39.XXBlackxVeinsXX- boobie cootiebrain
40.Lady- Zippy Cootie Tush
41.Valeri- boobie cootiejuice ...ok nevermind then
42. Judy- Gidget Gizzardbrains
43. kenzie- buttercup butterface sweet!
44. veronica- "loopie cootiehead"
45. Syllie- Boobie AppleBrain
46. Goober Cootie head
47. Teresa - loopy apple sniffer!!
48. Frank- Crusty Applenose
49. Katie- Tulefel GizzardBooger -- how sexy!!
50. chris- loopy cootie tush lol kool
51. Rebe- Lumpy ChickenButt!! hahahhaa
52. Frankie- Crusty Cootie face-- wtf, crusty daz nasty
53. Marco - Loopy AppleFanny - looks like im related to scott
54. Jack - Buttercup BubbleHiney - well my ass is nice
55. Blanca - Crusty BubbleJuice -It makes me hungry
56. Jazmine - Zsa-zsa Gorillafanny
57. Krissie - Kristine Ann Reardon
58. annie - zippy cootiemouth ahhahhahah
59. Alison - Chim-Chim Applebut --- wtf?
60. Grace - Crusty Cootie Nose
61. Kyle - Boobie Apple Buns
62. Emily- Chim-Chim Rhino Biscuits
63. Dave - Poopsie Cootie Tush
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It's the feeling that makes you all happy inside!!
1 She makes eye contact and smiles at you.
2. She hits you softly on the arm and laughs when you
say something funny.
3. She flips her hair when she's talking to you.
4. She touches your arm when she talks to you.
5. She says, "No, I'm not telling you who I like!" with
a big smile on her face.
6. She asks you who you like or who you would go out
with seemingly interested.
7. When you go to the movies with a bunch of your
friends and she is almost always next to you.
8. She criticizes you on a girl you like.
9. You catch her staring at you.
10. She plays with your hair or tries to put make up on
you.
11. Her friends outside of school and in school know
about you, and says she talks about you a lot.
12. She knows your phone number and address.
13. She will try and talk, and spend time with you as
much as possible
*~*Girls*~* [how guyz flirt]
1. He stares at you alot.
2. He hits you alot. (just play hitting )
3. He uses the first thing that pops into his head to
start a converstaion with you
4. He yelled, "Hi!", to your mom that day she picked you up from school.
5. He blew off his buds to go see "Run Away Bride" with
you cuz you couldn't get another girl pal to go and didn't want to
go alone.
6. He tries to make you laugh anyway even if he gets
hurt in the process
7. His voice gets softer ("Hey, you") when ever you two
talk.
8. You hung up on him. He called you back.
9. You where invited by him to a group outing.
10. He called you to talk about nothing at all.
11. He imitates your laugh. OK, you do snort sometimes.
Which makes you laugh even harder...
12. He remembers little things you mention in casual
conversation.
13. He sometimes stares straight into your eyes.
14. He uses every possible way to touch you (your hair,
face, butt, thighs, ect.)
Now make a wish...
repost this in 15 min and your wish will come true in 5
days.
repost this in 10 min and your wish will come true in 3
days.
repost this in 5 min and your wish will come true in 1 day
faster than 5 min, well you never know ;)aw
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| My Schedule for the year 2005-2006 |
[22 Aug 2005|10:48pm] |
1 Early Child Edu - Dier
2 Early Child Edu - Kaulfuss
1 Algebra C-Trig - Knoll
2 Ind In Society - Laithnen
1 Composition - Prescott B Lunch
2 Student Aid - Gendreau
1 Symphony Band - Hilton
2 Symphony Band - Hilton
1 Student Aid - Fishman
2 Algebra C-Trig - Knoll
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| WRITE ME!!! |
[12 Aug 2005|09:09pm] |
Please write me at band camp!
Grace Lindsay
L'Anse Creuse Bands
Camp Sea-Gull Lodge
8580 Boyne City Rd.
Charlevoix, MI 49720
I'm looking forward to your mail! :-) I'm there the 13-20
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| I took this from Amber! :-) |
[08 Aug 2005|12:04pm] |
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Name 20 of your friends
1.Emily
2.Steven
3.Ellen
4.Klint
5.Amber
6.Crystal
7.Kayo
8.Kyle
9.Bob
10.Krissie
11.Jeff
12.Alethea
13.Becca
14.Don
15.Keith
16.Matt
17.Rachel
18.Tiffany
19.Josie
20.Dan
Who is #8 going out with? No one right now....THANK GOD!
Is #9 a boy or a girl? Boy
Would #11 and #2 make a good couple?? EWW! No Way!
How about #18 and #4? No, she is too sluty for him
What grade is #17 in? 12th
When was the last time you talked to #12? Sunday
What is #6's favorite band? Umm....?
Does #1 have any siblings? YES!
Would you ever date #3? No, sorry Ellen!
Would you ever date #7? OH YEAH. Cause i love her :-)
Is #16 single? No.
What's #15's last name? Barron
What's #5's middle name? Louise
What's #10's fantasy? I'd say..but then she'd kill me :-x
Would #14 and #19 make a good couple? I don't think so!
What school does #20 go to? LCHS
Tell me a random fact about #11? My sister broke his heart! :' (
And #1: My best friend
And #3: She is section leader of two sections in band
Have you ever had a crush on #16? Noooo
Where does #9 live? Close by
What's #4's favorite color? Brown
Would you makeout with #14? Hmm... ;-)
Are #5 & #6 best friends? They don't even know each other
Does #7 like #20? Nooo
Does #8 like #19? He BETTER not!
How did you meet #15? Through his cousin Emily
Does #2 have any pets? Yeah a doggie :-)
Is #12 older than you? Nooo
Give #13 a hug: :-D I WILL!
Is #17 the sexiest person alive? Noo...but #8 IS!!!!!!
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| Issues? |
[04 Aug 2005|10:59am] |
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Hey ya'll! I'm actually updating for the third time this week! I would say that is a big accomplishment. I just bought two CDs :-) I got both of the Relientk CDs. They are a really good band. I like them a lot! I was originally supposed to get My Chemical Romance and Hawthorn Heights but I couldn't find either one of them. :-( Which sucks! Simones boyfriend Jeff burned me the Dashboard Confession CDs! :-) I'm so happy. Let me see...I drove Sam to 3 different stores today looking for a pair of shirts he needs for drum line. I don't think they make them anymore. No one had them! So idk. I had a pretty lame day today. I took my gramps to McDonalds and then went to Emilys for a little bit. That's all I did today. While I was at Emilys house we talked about the usual...guys and how much they suck. Her cousin drives me NUTS!
I love you but I hate you
I need you but I don't want you
Eugh! Tomorrow I start pre band camp. This sucks because starting tomorrow night at 5 I will not have a life until the begining of November. I go to band camp next Friday. People please write me and remind me of the world outside of hell. :-) I'll post the addy asap!
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| Is there such a thing? |
[02 Aug 2005|11:26pm] |
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I want a Boy...
...who can wrestle with me
and let me win.
...who i can talk to about anything
...who laughs at my jokes.
...who puts my cold hands
in his warm hoodie pockets.
...who lets me use his sweatshirt
for a pillow.
...who says i love you & means it.
...who will kiss me in the rain,
in the sunshine, and in the snow.
...whos calls unexpectedly.
...who will have many inside jokes
with me and remember each one.
...a boy who notices haircuts.
...who realizes that i say things
but dont always mean them.
...who can tell me his problems
and let me help.
...who will listen to me talk
...who saves his genuine, big smiles for me.
...with deeps eyes,
that can see through faces into depths.
...who gives me his t-shirt to change into
and not expect to get it back.
...who will shake my dads hand
and look my mom in the eye.
...who knows my full name--
first, middle and last.
...who willl know when something is wrong
when im trying my best to put on an act
...who will kiss me and
tell me im beautiful.
...who will let me cry to him.
...who will hold me& kiss my cheek.
...who suprises me and compliments
and plays with my hair.
...who will brag about me
to all of his friends
...not afraid to give me a great big hug
right infront of his mom
...who smells like
he just stepped out of the shower.
...who wears cologne that i can subtly
smell when im leaning on his shoulder.
...who tells me i have a nice laugh
and a smile that lights up the room
and simply be mine to hold.
Girls if you want a boy like this, send this in the next 2 minutes , If Your a boy that does this, repost it and say"I'm that Boy
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[02 Aug 2005|07:49am] |
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Heh, I must have been on depression pills when I updated last. Don't worry guys I'm not too emo anymore. I am happy now. And no it's not because I am in a relationship because I'm not. I finally got my license a few weeks ago and I am on the hunt for a good job. This past week Emilys cousins came down from Marquette. :-) Last Tuesday Emily and I went to the mall with Dave and we saw the movie House of Wax. Between you and I...it was so lame! Sorry Dave but you need to get a personality cause you bored me to death. Well, that brings me to why I am happy. I am usually so lame and shy/quiet around Emilys cousin Kyle. Dave showed me that if I act like that then Kyle won't ever get to see who I really am and need to say it he wouldn't EVER like me not that he does anyways. So this past week when I went to Emilys grandparents house (where her counsins were staying) I opened up and was myself around her cousin. :-) He opened up around me once I was myself. Usually there is a weird tension between us. But since I acted normal around him he was able to loosen up and be cool around me. Need to say things turned out really well. I was about to give up but he gave me hope. There are so many mixed signals though. He says he likes girls who are 14 because he says older ones are sluts but then he says 14 is too young. I don't understand. He drives me nuts! He was telling me how he wants a girl with good morals and values and someone who respects herself and her faith. Umm HELLO! I'm standing right infront of you!!!! I'm everthing he described. There is probably just one thing I don't have that he wants...the looks. He goes for tall skinny blondes. Heh, I guess I'll never be good enough no matter what I do. I guess it just hurts to love him so much but it even hurts more that he'll never understand just how much I love him. I've been in love with this guy since I was in 7th grade. I try to let him go but there is something about him that won't let me give up. It would be for the better if I could get away from him. :-( So much happened while he was here that makes me want to not let go.
Love sucks!
It wouldn't be called a crush if it didn't hurt so much!
How can you say you know me when you didn't know you broke my heart?
Love the one who gets away
You said you loved me I said it too, the only thing is I didn't lie to you...
My worst nightmare is for me to say i love you and you don't love me back
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[04 Jun 2005|10:34pm] |
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Heh, live is so lonely. I wish I were somebody different! I feel so alone. I feel like I have nobody to turn to. The people I thought were there for me seem different right now and I can't communicate with them. I mean I'm not happy at all. I act happy but I'm not. I'm so lonely. All of my friends are getting into relationships and are very happy. And then there is just plain old fat me. ALONE, miserble, sad, unhappy.... bye
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| WTF!!!! |
[06 Apr 2005|02:30pm] |
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WTF! Krissie...:-( It's back to being in the middle of his face.
Fix it! You need to come over and help me. Loverz ya!
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| YAY! |
[02 Apr 2005|09:31pm] |
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Yay! It's fixed!! Did you fix it Krissie?
Sweetness!!! Krissie you can still come over
I'd be happy to have you. ;-) lol. Yay, I
loverz you Krissie! And you too Tyler Hilton.
He has a bad name but man is he FINE!
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